the ridiculous and all-consuming sort

do you remember the days and people of our youth

and then i remember how it all ended. how the future no longer was a future together, how the love we paid a great deal for became worthless and how everything and everyone just got messed up. very messed up. life became a crazy game of conquest for both of us; i remember the nights i spent at clubs, the nights i got devastatingly drunk and the nights i abandoned all. and how after you there were a couple of others, a couple of other similarly situated souls whom i regularly shared weekends with and with whom i did the same things as we've done before.

we were just young and brash then. not anymore. i have a new 'him' now, and 'we' no longer refer to the same people. things have changed, we have mellowed down and life just ain't that exciting anymore. life is now staying in school doing tutorials, having zi char for dinner after, camping it out at macs writing memorials, the occasional shopping spree in town. life is no more overwhelming like how it was. but well, some things you have to give up.