everything and nothing to hold on to

i think we need to get our minds and hearts to to be less flighty and to start settling down. school yesterday was more of hanging out than learning, though i'm sure we learn new things either way.

sneaking glances at people in the study room in between attempts to do the lawr tutorial, hilarious three-way msn conversations with D and R, watching the oc together at 7.30pm, five star chicken rice for the wounded souls and eventually the four of us having baileys on my rooftop, talking nonsense and stoning to kings of convenience in a comfortable silence. i eventually fell asleep lying on the concrete floor.

i heard something i shouldn't have. i'm sorry. and damnit, because the knowledge didnt make the night any better for us.