the time to sleep is now

This is a declare hate for myself entry.

I am one arrogant bitch. I thought I would have been selected for that damned scholarship; I didn't doubt it at all. I thought I did a more than fine job; apparently I didn't. The worst thing is, I don't even know what I didn't do well enough in And that speaks so much - of my fucking arrogance, of my shameless over-confidence.

Life has been going too well for us dears, because we, as a social strata, cannot deal with rejection. Oh yes we can and we have, you say. Only rejection that we're prepared for.

But nah, the lack of a scholarship is not the issue. It's the fact that life smacked me straight in the face when my eyes were closed because I was just so assuming and damnit cocky.

ARGH I disgust myself because I can't even fucking write coherantly now, let alone write well, HA.

What's new, what's new.